This new video series actually deters me from trying out cosplay at PAX.  I’m starkly off-center from the average con-goer and old fears emerge when I’m among them.  Greatly enjoying all my new-thing trying, I still don’t excel in a large group.  No reason to call any attention to myself.  I tend to get bullied by Gamers.  Just as a 4-year old is excluded from the 10-year old’s party games, it’s a circumstance that simply exists no matter how much she wants to change it.  That’s how I feel, showing up late to the gunfight with my knife.