Wednesday is traditionally hump day. The CSPC takes that literally and offers a semi-private party every week for members and their guests. When one of my better friends revealed his membership I jumped at the chance to check the place out. To become an actual member I still need to attend a full orientation but this party is the perfect way to try before you buy.
A free mixer from 6-8pm allows the curious a chance to sniff around while the staff weeds out obvious creeps before anyone gets naked. Having a member with me cut out the awkward, “Can I play too?” element of my visit. Of course, my concerns were mostly unfounded. If you’re polite and open-minded the members will likely extend an invitation. Everyone is friendly and mostly ignores you unless you need help with something. That’s where having a partner with me helped – I could voice my insecurities quietly without worrying anyone unnecessarily.
My only real complaint is the lack of signage outside the building. The windowless, nondescript exterior is understandable given the nature of events. However, I am disappointed that no designation exists above the main entrance because it feels like there is something to hide. Asking the members, they say the reason is to avoid random idiots wandering in off the street. I contend that a simple sign with the letters CSPC would not gain the notice of passers-by and the location isn’t really conducive to random walk-ins. But I just got here, so what do I know?
The event itself is fun and I plan to go back. A couple groups of suspension players next to a big pile of mattresses, designated the Cuddle Pile, keeps the front of the house fairly tame as far as movie ratings go. A large screen projection of classic pornography dominates the center of the room and behind the screen is an area designated for exhibitionists and their voyeurs. After getting settled in, I spent most of my time watching and being watched there. I visited a separate area dedicated to BDSM but the lack of music playing in that room is slightly unnerving for a newbie like me.
The back of the main room is set up with mattresses separated by semi-transparent curtains. The lighting above each bed is adjustable, allowing a customized experience in a room full of people exploring their sexuality. Much like Cage’s 4’33”, no single experience in the back room is ever the same. I feel completely comfortable having sex next to strangers but I’m not used having such a comfortable space to do it in. The most surreal part is expressing my pleasure at a loud volume and not getting complaints. After years of suppressing my ecstatic screams for the benefit of friends, parents and neighbors, it’s liberating to hear other people match my moans. Musical.
I catch men looking at me from time to time but most people focus on their own scenes. The men that stare at me aren’t ashamed to do it and that makes me feel powerful. I closeted my exhibition most of my life so the chance to safely indulge is thrilling on many levels. It’s the number one reason I will go back. I believe I am a beautiful creature and watching people appreciate that is a huge turn-on. I also enjoy watching others display their beauty for me. It creates a connection between two people that’s pure and unsullied by insecurity.
Near the end of the night, one of the single men asks if I want to play with his cock. I politely declined. Shortly after my partner goes to use the showers, the same man approaches to ask me other questions. The man receiving a blow job in the center of the room makes eye contact with me and silently asks if I need help. I don’t often need help but I greatly appreciate someone bothering to notice. Especially given the circumstances. The CSPC staunchly adheres to the tenets of consent and safety and all the members look out for each other. Witnessing my own evidence only solidifies the desire to involve myself in the community.
Orientation is Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday. I’m sure one of those times will work for me in the next week. If you want to check the place out for yourself just let me know. I believe everyone should get the chance to explore their sexuality in a safe space. The more the merrier.