Category Archives: Reasons for Things

Well thought-out posts and in-depth observations. Warning: may contain extensive abstract thought.

5-dolla Lifestyle

I know a wise Canadian name Gwarsbane that lives by a simple rule. If a game isn’t 5$ or under, he probably won’t buy it. Nothing personal against all the people that want to pay more. He finds that it’s more fun to play many cheap games where he periodically finds gold nuggets instead of investing in the one polished gem. At least, that’s how I see it.

I feel the same way about entertainment. Not sure if I mentioned a 5$ lifestyle last summer, but it was definitely on my mind. I look at the options before me and think about what I’d get for a Lincoln. Not a lot in most parts of the city. However, if you just want to buy a coke, roughly 2$, you can be the bartender’s best friend with that $5. Or barista, ahem, for that matter.

Then it comes down to the ambiance. Always with the ambiance! Why do people want to be there. Me? I look for spots you’d find in postapocalyptic Frost poetry.

June 30

There was chain lightning in the sky tonight. I caught a few decent glimpses on Instagram but then hurried home to get some work done. Energy work. The sky is literally crackling with magic.

I’ve discovered more of my shadow and it took me a moment to adjust.  I am used to hiding in plain sight.  Invisible in obviousness.  Nowadays I feel visible.  I feel like someone.  I like who I am enough to defend myself.

I am aware my shape is pleasing.   Maybe it’s DNA?  Maybe good habits?  I do know my body gets more pleasing the more I value myself as a person.  Boundaries and standards and all those other important things.

The glory of mother nature.  Behold.

 

He

Kept me safe when I needed it most.
And yet always the effervescent host

Loves me and almost all my flaws
Even the ones that come on paws

Has my heart at all times whenever
While I continue to love him forever

 

June 29

I woke up this morning.

After drifting away
The fog has dissipated
Snapped to attention
Seeing clearly and it’s
first time this summer.

The sun illuminates
And the moon glows
Neither see too
Well themselves.

Clarity
Focus
Driving west
Freedom’s best
When you know what you want.

Vibrant feelings
Wash over me
Rainbow sunshine
Don’t mind the glare.

Always, One Thing
I staunchly support
Is Equality
Whether or not
It applies to me.

Other marriages
Plans don’t changeOther divorces
Contracting
Human nature
Like you do.

The cats are clean
The room is swept.
Two more movesand many miles
Before I sleep.

Solstice

I’m late cleaning.  I just digitally cleansed my phone.  I found pockets of debris from last year even.  It was not fun.  Made me realize the boxes of physical items from my past that I’m agonizing over isn’t really that much if you consider how much “stuff” we digitally haul around every day.

I got rid of something like a gignahalf of pictures and video.  Don’t even get me started about how all this plays into the bigger scheme of things.

Suffice it to say, I’m comfortable for the first time in ages.  Still have miles to go before I sleep.

June 24

Watching Seinfeld. Pretty much for the first time. I know I was tuned in to the program during a formative part of my youth.  That was at least 3 lifetimes ago though.  Continue reading June 24

June 22

I am a singular person and a walking cliche.

I move through the line
Aware of the appearance
Still wondering
How far I can go.

Self awareness is not comfortable
It averages out well if you
stay true and humble
What I think of me matters

In search of healthy conflict
I know the key to surviving
is wrapped in acceptance
Loving east as I move west.

It warms my heart
Enveloped in the bestDaily life I’ve ever known
Alone for the first time.

These Precious Things

Dear god, help me.

I want to play Heroes of the Storm so frickin bad.

The main chink in my gaming armor is Starcraft. Kerrigan is a rare female in the gaming world. She’s truly feminine yet she’s one of the darkest super-villians ever created, regardless of gender.  Her superpower is basically intuition and her soft spot is true love.  She’s sexy as hell – think Jean Gray meets Mystique meets Nightcrawler.

jean_grey_by_quibly-d57upyk Mystique_2000 Nightcrawler_by_spiderguile

I haven’t even caught up on the expansion to Starcraft II yet.  Adult life can be that way sometimes.  Now I have to play it before PAX.  Gamer life can be that way sometimes.

June 20

Alignment
On point
Focused
At peace
Sturdy
Tall
Enlightened
Uplifted
Happy
Determined
Alone
Leading
Adventuring
Hoping
Believing
Engaged
Active
Eager
Certain
Clear
Centered