Category Archives: Quick Thoughts

Blurbs. For the “too long, didn’t read” folks. ;-)

Anal Sex

There’s a difference between making someone come and helping someone come. Therein lies the spectrum of human sexuality. I spent my whole sex life trying to make my partners have orgasms. All that I wore, said and did was in effort to get them off. No concern for my own pleasure or pain, stopping before their climax left me unfulfilled.  The mentality of trying to force an orgasm elicits frustration almost from the start.  Making someone do something implies an oppositional approach in general.  It’s the same thing driving some people to go down so aggressively you’d think those genitals owe them money.  Continue reading Anal Sex

Multi-stressing

Trying to build a new life while memorializing my old existence is stressful. My cat is the perfect example of the struggle. She’s loving and happy and brings joy to my life. She purrs, cuddles and plays, unconditionally loving everyone in her presence. She’s also in renal failure and requires a special food to keep her healthy. To keep this perfect slice of my life I need to budget roughly $130/month for cat food. That’s exceedingly impractical at this point.  Continue reading Multi-stressing

Suicidal Idealization

I left my hometown in January. It was somewhat abrupt even though I planned for it. It’s not even the end of May and I already can’t remember my life there. My life here is still completely foreign. Everywhere I go is new and people are consistently surprised by me. I am admired often but not welcomed in. That’s the nature of Seattle. Continue reading Suicidal Idealization

Future Craigslist Ad

Sexy 34-year old divorcee iso sugar daddy.

Able to clean and cook in exchange for room & board in or near downtown Seattle.  Will perform other duties as negotiated in exchange for cash and prizes.  Will consider an emotional bond for the right applicant.

Require full personal liberty during time off.

No fat chicks.

 

I Love You

Those three words. Those three fucking words. Get over yourself already.

On some level, I feel love for almost everyone I meet. It’s far more important whether I like you. I don’t like that many humans. In contrast, I like nearly all dogs. My love stems from a firm belief that we are all pretty much the same. And that dogs are near perfect.

If I like you it means you’re worth my time. All the love in the world doesn’t take care of you when you need something real. People who like you help with that. And dogs. Dogs cure almost anything.

Leather Hairdresser

I’m glad I waited for the real thingContinue reading Leather Hairdresser

Bryn Kitty

It’s been the three of us since 2001. I adopted Maya from the Forrest Hill vet clinic where I worked after deciding not to continue at Bryn Mawr. She’s maya koshka. Working two full-time jobs, I left home for up to 18 hours some days. Her response to that is explosive diarrhea. So I went to the Humane Society in midtown Memphis and adopted a 6-month old kitten to keep my cat company.

Sitting in the room of adoptable cats and kittens, I cast about for the right choice. Softly clucking and petting every furry thing in front of me, one particular kitten kept following me about the room mewing. When I’d sit down with a prospective cat she literally pushed into my lap every time. Bryn clearly chose me as her person and was not having it any other way. I relented quickly, of course.

Arriving home with a second cat, Maya walks straight up to us and let’s out an open-mouth hiss. Bryn pulls back with wide eyes, equally startled and confused by this greeting. She carefully noses forward as Maya crouches low, flattening her ears. Curious, Bryn puts her paw out to poke the beast. A rumbling growl and Maya pounces. One short tussle before they tear across the room, Bryn chasing Maya. 5 minutes later they are aggressively grooming each other. Sisters ever since.

Bryn has always loved affection, giving and receiving.  She sleeps next to my pillow or under the covers and can wake me up just by staring intently at my face.  She will follow you into the bathroom if you don’t close the door completely because she likes a captive audience.  When living with dogs she never took their shit and even taught Ziva how to wrestle.

Bryn kitty is in end stage renal failure.  There’s not much to do but make her comfortable.  Eventually the stuff her kidneys aren’t filtering will make her too sick to eat.  That’s when it’s time.  I don’t know when that will be.

Sensational Suspense

Getting tied up is a pretty classic fetish. Hanging from the ceiling while tied up is a little more elaborate. In the world of try it before you deny it, I expected to hang once and never again.

The bruises and rope burn coupled with second day soreness is about what I anticipated. The pure joy I felt – completely unexpected.  Swinging violently through the air, giggling like a school girl on the playground.

Much like mountain climbing, suspension play takes effort, focus and various carabiners. Those working together must communicate well and trust each other.  The end reward is a new perspective on the world around you.

There’s also decorative rope tying.  That’s sexy in a different way.  I’m excited to explore the bondage side of BDSM further.  Next time I’m gonna get my hands tied into reverse namaskar and go for a supported backbend.

Ellipses Menses

It’s been a stressful month. Some of the stress is fantastically good but that doesn’t make me less tense. My period started early and has lingered too long. I haven’t done enough yoga to compensate and the result is a menstrual ellipsis instead of just my period. Mother nature likes to remind me of my limits when I fly this close to the sun.  Continue reading Ellipses Menses