Category Archives: Daily Life

Everything from impromptu thoughts to well-constructed observations.

Cost of Living

Art, Daily Life, Dives, mur, Random, Rants, Reasons for Things, Stories, Streamline

The most poignant parts of my life happened in books. Every time I discover something great it’s with a fictional companion. Not a wonder I feel destined to write a story. In the meantime, I’m working on telling my stories out loud. I’m the Jane Austen character that wishes she was Jane Austen, not believing in myself is part of the magic. That ability to zone out and take apart the world around me. Not caring what people think and simply continuing on my mission.

I feel freer now than I ever have. The problem is it hurts to breathe. I’m not wanting for anything except more time to process things. Constant sources of entertainment and new experiences. Potential to start over in career paths I once loved. Living in denial this long is a bit like leaving a cult (or a bunker). The cost of living in my previous life was so infinitely higher than here.  Shifts in resources have been dramatic to say the least but the difference is truly the human resources.

Some family networks are too large to fail.  Fortunately, I found a great divestment option that only costs me biological children.  A prodigal soul made better by the journey, regardless of results.  I come from a fertile bunch and resisting the call of motherhood was never an easy decision. My only problem is sapiosexuality doesn’t promote good genetics.  I’m not a physical specimen that should get replicated.  That said, I’m pretty sure I gave birth to a religion recently, so I might live up to my original namesake.

Drahmah

Art, Book, Daily Life, mur, Streamline

The main thing I avoid when selecting favorite people and places is drama.  Unless there’s a stage show, in which case the drama should be dialed up to at least an 8 or 9.  Unscripted drama had its time when we squished reality up against a TV camera.  The value of that genre lasted about as long as shock rock.  Writing and directing the chaos that we seek is best left to a collaboration, like bullfights.  That doesn’t mean I won’t watch when it’s free.  Continue reading Drahmah →

Philosophy

Daily Life, Quick Thoughts, Random, Reasons for Things

Dynamics of living in a bubble.
Strong trends toward the bottom edge –
that’s where everything settles.
It takes work to reach extremes.
Sometimes you have be at the edge
just to grasp hold of something.
The curve of the globe ensures
different perspectives.  Good thing,
it’s not a contest.

Duality is a false construct.
Seeking a sense of unity,
the idea of oneness .
Can’t quite wrap comprehension
all the way around.
A bracelet that never closes.
Each side an extreme,
bunched up against something
we can’t even conceive.

I honor those that keep reaching.
Philosophers making way
for scientists to build Foundations.
Collaborative internet efforts
Piecing together a Ghost
In a Machine
That can win trivial pursuits.
You must unfold the circle
to understand the line.

Weight Watchers Commercial?

Quick Thoughts

Is Oprah hurting for money? I just saw a weightwatchers.com commercial of just her saying the word bread repeatedly?

Note to self: invest in bread stocks.

Twitter Anxiety

Art, Daily Life, Future Plans, Games, mur, Reasons for Things

I don’t understand the language of Tweet quite yet. I got a Twitter a few months ago for the same reason I got a Facebook a few years ago – it’s just part of being a part of the digital world. I really appreciate my past self for her foresight. After my livejournal debacle in 2003, I recognize the value of keeping quiet. There little online evidence of what I’ve done with the first part of my life and thankfully I don’t remember a lot of it.

I’m listening to an interview with Robert Khoo and I want people that like things I like to hear it. And I’m a total fan-girl. So you tweet that, right? Do I tag the man himself or is that presumptuous? My upbringing makes me extra sensitive to things like etiquette so I’m totally overthinking things. Still, there will one day be standards taught to BBA graduates on how and when to use meta conversations. Maybe I’ll write the book.

The literary equivalent of art directing is called editor. Rookie writers are great at producing too much. After you get a surplus of ideas the most valuable perspective is what to keep. In some ways, detachment from my inner artist makes me the best critic. I might be blossoming into the perfect Human Resources manager. I just hope I don’t starve to death before then.

Quandary

Art, Daily Life, Games, mur, Random

I checked the spelling of quandary on Google today.  The first link is a game.  A flash game about empathy and morals, I think. Naturally I have to explore this.  There’s a little game I like to play called Dismantling the Intent Behind Preachy Allegory.  Not really, but my cynicism compels certain behavior and it’s useful to know how far off the center I am at times.  The artwork is a rudimentary version of those Children’s Bible Stories I read in fancy doctor waiting room.  It’s like a trigger, or something.  Continue reading Quandary →

Smoking Pot

Daily Life, First Impressions, Future Plans, mur, Rants

I had a job interview today.  It went like all the other job interviews I’ve ever had.  Smile, make a good impression, get offered the job. Difference this time is I didn’t use a stage whisper when I asked about the drug test.  After all, weed is legal here so I don’t have to lie about using it.  I was very clear when asking if that was going to be a problem.  I don’t consider it a problem no matter their response. Continue reading Smoking Pot →

Winning

Daily Life, Games, mur

Two things happened today.

I had an emotional breakthrough that advanced my overall progress as an adult.

I also went to a board game party that was entertaining and relaxing.

Neither are activities I expected and both have changed the course of my social life for the better.  I have more to say but this is not the place or the time.  Learning new things can be quite exhausting.

A Proper Date

Art, Book, Daily Life, First Impressions, mur, Quick Thoughts

Last Saturday, our eyes met across the bar exchanging furtive glances over our respective pints. He was too shy to approach me until the stranger sitting between us literally made him swap seats. Boy-next-door cute, I assumed he wouldn’t even pass the chit-chat test. To my surprise, a genuine kindness shone through the dive bar malaise surrounding me. We nervously exchanged digits and made plans for Thursday.  That was more than 3 days away.  He might actually be interested in me.  Continue reading A Proper Date →