It’s not complacency, accepting the truth. Knowing what reality looks like is a sound business strategy. It means accepting the good with the bad. You can’t have everything so measure what you need. There are truths that will change during your lifetime. If you really want the unceasing flow of change to move in your direction, fight realities that aren’t solid yet. Don’t lament the unchangeable. Even that will change eventually, just not at a pace you can work with.

In my high school yearbooks, my name is in the index with photo pages assigned to me. For some reason, in 10th grade they gave me 9 page credits while I only had 4 photos in the book. There are only 3 my junior year but someone got a candid shot of me more true to my self than any other picture I’ve ever seen from my youth. I love it. It hit me like a shock driving home from my first day of work at Nintendo. I remember a version of me that was comfortable and relaxed. I wore the clothes I enjoyed and did the things that interested me.

I was out in the middle of the field during a track meet and someone took a picture of me without my hair in my face and I’ve got one leg cocked up on the chair and my other foot wrapped around a bottom rung. I’m leaning to the side in a way that is still comfortable to this day. My hips have always been loose and exercising that range of movement comes naturally. I’m more comfortable with my legs spread. Of course, that’s an unladylike posture and not encouraged. If you know what I mean.

I’ve adopted more purpose since last week. The need to get my point across seems more  important than ever. Time grows short and a life is forming before me. I might get so wrapped up in the present I forget about why I’m here. I don’t want to slack because there are past mes that really need future mes’ influence. The only way to complete the circle is by moving forward. Dwelling in the past is worse than lingering outside the cast entrance at an off-Broadway theater.