Existing isn’t that hard.  Taking pride in my existence is where all the stress starts.

I do okay.  I work hard, stay honest and smile at strangers.  I pay my bills, brush my teeth and wear shoes in public.

When I have 4 hours of free time I don’t know what to do with myself.  I can’t hold still and enjoy the stillness.  Learning to hold still, i.e. yoga, is something I do to center but it’s still a form of work.  I want to be like my cat.  Just be still.